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15 minutes won't kill me. Today was weird. It seemed that there were a lot of fights =/. Lots of yelling anyways. The future politicians. A couple friends and I. It just seems like too much has happened in a short period of time. Darling dear, I'm sorry you didn't get the same treatment as her this morning (: You got yours didn't you? Yes you did. And you admitted to liking it. I'm not the only one who can give hugs (: Who do you think you are stealing my hissy fits over stupid things (: That's totally my job! I'm thinking that my 'punishment' is just an excuse for a hug... No, I pretty much know it is, haha. The politicians? I don't know what I'm going to do with them... I just hope they don't screw up their friendship over it. Oh my, science is creeping up on me as a potential stress factor. I really don't want that to happen. Because last time it was horrid. But last time we got an A? So maybe I should keep my stress? Yeah right. I need food. I'm starvingg. But I ate the whole house already =/ Some soup thingy tonight... Good? Cheyeah it is. I think my mom should sell her biscuits. She'd make millions, honestly. It's a wonder how I even am able to eat the old ones since my friends steal them (: And then I get yelled at for not eating (: Ahh, story of my life. Story of my freakin' life :D. I should probably really finish homework now... I'd much rather be up till 10:30 on a project, then 12 o'clock finishing English after the fact (:
I'm just mad that I can't give you as much of a chance as I'd like. I'm sorry, you kinda fxcked up with me though =/. Idk. I'm willing to give you a chance. As always though, I can't trust you. I probably will never be able to trust you. Not unless something miraculous occurs. You were so selfless today though. Like, I could look at you in the eye, and you'd look back. It's like you really did try to change. But I don't think you could fully gain my respect. Surprise Me? Everyone's back (: Which means some unaccounted for drama has also returned. But I'd rather deal with that than not have them. As annoying as some may be, they do make my day in the stupidest ways. As much as they yell at me... huh. That's so why I love them (: Geometry makes me want to crawl in a hole and die. Not many things make me want to do that. Not many at all! Chorus can be bad, but not nearly as bad as geometry. Gym can be pathetic, but not as pathetic as geometry. I don't need to be told I fail at life in that class, I get it enough Ms. Mantineo. Get over yourself. So, I think I've got a good handle on why I love music so much. It's like, the order to the universe. No one can explain to me why the heck there's Carbon 14 or 12, but they can tell me what makes a Symphony bring someone to tears. What causes the Pop happy high. The fact that techno just makes you want to dance. And how powerful Underoath can be. It's like, in the making of all these styles, there are little worlds. And when you look into how it's set up, you've got the order to the universe. Of course, I still don't understand what about music some people don't get. I find the theory fascinating. Others would rather die. That's a little harsh...but still. Just get my point? Or pretend to (:
But it's great to be back. Because honestly, I didn't want to go. But I learned a lot. Like this: You're not so self-centered as I had assumed. I've always just backed off, tried not to associate with you because everyone who does seems annoying or slutty. I'm thinking that's because they are....but anyways. I'm still probably never going to be great friends with you, but it's nice to know you don't think I act like everyone else. And this: You try too hard, and I seriously thought you were kidding at first. But you weren't. I'm not sure what to think of you, but we won't be close. And that: Capo 7? Capo 7 is pretty sweet. I need to compile my thoughts a bit.
I've gotta say, I'm pretty proud of myself. I was perfectly fine for most everything besides English. English was weird. I think I want to make an Ep. Or at least attempt to. I've written a few songs, why not try messing around with recording? That's on my list of summer goals of course. There seems to be a reoccurring theme with them. Sigh, why why why! I'm not sure what to do with you. I can understand where you're coming from, I just don't agree with it. And, oh I don't know, I just don't feel like I really mean as much as you say sometimes. I'm not dead matter. I've got some feelings too. Everyone does. What's so difficult to admit about that? How can people be so inconsiderate of other's feelings? How can they be so inconsiderate and then go off and cry because no one loves them. Love has two sides. I find it amusing how so many people don't understand that. Love. Still haven't met that head on. Frankly, I don't think I could survive the crash
Really big headache. And of course, I'm dreading tomorrow. What am I going to do tomorrow? That is a wonderful question, seeing as everyone's going to be gone. I didn't realize how many people were leaving until today though. What am I going to do tomorrow? This week just needs to end I guess. Well, this week has been lovely to start. Hugs & Piano & ...Well, I don't know. It was just great. And today was REALLY great too. I don't know what it was about it...it was just nice. "I'm sure if you wanted too stop love. You could just untie your end. And let it go. But my god you don't. You don't. Yeah, I think I love you for it." -As Cities Burn
"Why don't you learn to play a real instument?" 'How does one define a real instrument exactly?' "One that you could play in band." 'Oh.' "It doesn't look like it'd be too hard for you to pick up after all. We'll try some stuff out when you're around here" After school: 'Dad, Mr. Sterling thinks I should join band.' "When were you planning on doing that?" 'I don't know, within the next couple years maybe' "I'm sorry, I just don't understand why you'd throw away chamber choir for that." Thanks dad. I don't understand. Half the time I don't even want this stuff to happen, it just does. Must you neglect what I can't change? Again, a prayer for passion leads me way off kilter. Do I understand it yet? Nope. Will I ever? Probably...but there's a great chance it won't be for a while. Sigh. It just sounds so fake. Like an easy way out. I saw you again today. And I'm afraid it got me thinking. It got me questioning things. It got me being kind of curious. Could I bring it up? Sure. Should I? Well, I don't want to. End result? I never will. Not until you bring it up first. I love how you're so freakin' mature. It's almost comical how much sense you make. The reasons you have for the actions you take are thought out. It's...I don't know, something I wish I could do more of. I need to finish your mixtape. Like now.
Sweet thing you know I've fallin' down You better dig and take a look inside yourself' -Dispatch Damn. This day was great. I don't know what could have made it better. Because I don't think anything could have made it better. It was just lovely. I was in mid-air several times today, both theoretically and literally. That certainly makes things more entertaining (: I only almost got hurt once at lunch; I think that's a record. I made things right with someone. It was nice. I got all of my hugs in (: Which is GREAT. If the only good things I got out of my life were hugs, I'd still be happy. Well. Hugs and jam sessions. I'd love to have more jam sessions. ...Why don't more people play with me? haha I should make them more known. Daddy's fun to jam with because he knows what he's talking about. Some people just smile and wave, but I love them just the same (: Favorite quotes today: 'I don't hear any tape picking up!' 'Ahh! My wish came true!' 'Please?' 'Poor Peeper!' 'He touched me again!' "Things COULD be worse....well" *Just stop there*
And it's weird. Like, I'm not used to having a bed. It just looks weird sitting there. There's this hole in the back that zips up that I can put my drugs in. (also known as my journal) It's not even a real bed and it looks weird. Barely long enough for me (: Which makes me think, if I can barely fit into it, how silly would someone taller than me look in it? 'My bed's high off the ground, but my legs hang off of it.' Ahh, I love it. The various tall friends I have (: I have a lot of tall friends... I'm trying to decide if it's because they're tall or I'm short. 'No, I'm average height, you're short' ...Well, they're just ALWAYS right, aren't they? Of course they are. So, saxophone? I really am wanting to learn that. World class amazing at it? Nahh, I just think I'd be cool. I've never actually played a woodwind before... Or anything that required air...besides the recorder. Haha, oh the recorder... Good times...good times...
I'm happy where I am. I'd like to stay. Again: 'I like, where we are. Here.' That's all. I can't really say much else.
Cleaning my room. Wait wait, before you go nuts on me, let me explain. See, now that I've got a working ipod in the dock, I crank it. And I belt. I belt a lot. And it's reallyyyyyy fun (: The bad part is coming back down stairs and realizing that it was so loud. Or finding out that the window was open. Or discovering that you're singing for a lot more than two people because your back's turned. Yeah. That's awkward. I'm not supposed to be able to do that. But I can. And I can't get away with not doing it. I thought you had forgotten. I really did. But of course, you didn't. And now you're insisting. Why do you care so much? 'Why must I?' "Because I'll kill you if you don't, that's why."
The hole's back. And of course, I don't want to admit that I know why it's back. Just because it hurts too much, and goes against everything I actually want. Like what my brain wants. I enjoy the picture I can set up in my brain, grow up, become a doctor or something in a science field, sure. But my heart is screaming no. And when my heart screams no, I get this hole, trying to lurch me into something else. And it hurts. It hurts a lot. And I hate it. Who wouldn't though? It's not exactly the greatest place to be. And I want to get out. But the way I got out before required screwing a lot of things up. I don't want to screw up a lot of things again. Not that I want to go back to the way things were, because I'm much happier now. It's just that I'm afraid that I'll get myself into a lot of trouble with this hole. I did last time to a point. And I hated it (see a pattern here?). I'd drop the topic, but it's just such an odd way to end a great week. Not to say that today was horrible of course. I mean, Geometry made me want to pull out a gun and shoot the teacher for being such a bitch, but other than that it was nice. Lunch was the usual happy making lunch. The morning was entertaining as always. My french note got me through the last mod. And in study all I could think about was how lucky I am. And English was fun for once. And gym was...well, gym. Which is entertaining whether you want it to be or not. Yeah. This week really does top most weeks for sure. Could it have been better? Of course, but it's the best in awhile. I would kill for another week like this Let's not say kill, because there ARE people I want dead. But we're not going to talk about that now are we :).
1)-You are relatable 2)-You all have a way with words in some method. 3)-Well, I just love you guys. So, in the end, that's not really an answer at all. More like, I've narrowed it down, simplified it. But of course, I never will know for sure what goes on up there in those pretty little heads. It's a whole lot of good from what I see though. On a more singular note: I know I tell you all the time you make my life. Cause you do (: haha You're so hilarious. And then you on a singular note: You're probably the sweetest person I know. I can't get over how happy you make me too, haha Wow, lots of people make me happy. Pretty much everyone in my life has made me happy at one time or another. I like it (:
'No I won't.' "Trust me, everything's going to be fine." 'You really think so?' "Come on, you'll have fun." Story of my life today. People constantly telling me everything will be alright. Always. And those people are the ones that make me smile before they even say a word. This whole week has been great. ... Someone care to explain for me? I'd assume it was the lack of English work, but I'm fine on those days most of the time. It may have been seeing my best friend for the first time in a long time (: That part of it, I'm sure, but there's something more. Like, it's an essence as a whole. Why? Who knows. I don't. I won't say this time I don't want to know... But ignorance is bliss right now. Yeah, I'm going to ride that wave for awhile. Because happy is nice (: I enjoy it greatly.
Why the heck why. Why me? Why him? Why her? Why this? Why that? Oh how I wish I knew. Hormones...that must be the answer. ...No, that doesn't make sense. It just doesn't. What do I think the answer is? It's the inevitable. It's a freaking addiction. An addiction I don't want to have. No, it's not drugs or anything actually harming to me. It's. I don't even want to call it that. But it is =/ And then there's you. I don't know what to say about you either. I can't get over how happy you make me (: Honestly. And I think you know. Which is why you've stayed entertaining. Haha. "There's a piece of me in every second of every single day But if it's true then tell me how we got this way. Where are you now?" -The Mixed Tape (:
And I read it. And my thoughts always worry me (: I started 'waking up' and totally realizing what I was talking about. I had to stop myself. I didn't want to go any further into what I don't want to get involved in. Well, I honestly think that's a lie. I want to get involved. Part of me wants to be involved. Part of me wants to run away. But, I'd rather get closer than farther away. I suppose that tells how the rest of my year will play out, hmm? Well, let's hope that doesn't play out the entire rest of the year. (Although I'd love it ever so much) Distractions are horrible for miss Olivia during the school year. Well, distractions are horrible for miss Olivia most anytime. But I think I could handle this. It seems simple enough. Remember last year though dear? That's right, we try to forget that now. I love how I'm going to take walking next year for gym (: It's going to be epic. Insanely epic. Like, I can't wait. It's going to be that great! Because it will be one of two classes i'll have below a level 4. People ask why. Because I can =/. That doesn't mean I want too. I mean. I really don't want to take these required classes. If I had it my way, I would take... Well, I won't name classes specifically...but point is that it's not anything close to what i'm taking now. My end of day thought? My thought is that I am actually looking forward to waking up tomorrow. (And that's why I'm staying)
I've just been so happy. Well, aside from geometry of course. But that is geometry after all. Geometry just makes me want to fall asleep (: But music classes make my day. But I do feel a little guilty of not being at lunch as much as I adore the band room. I knew I should not have gone back. That's what happened last time. I never wanted to leave =/. Stupid passions. Why does THIS have to be my passion. I don't get it. I know I don't HAVE to get it. It's a good thing...because I don't! Joy upon joys. I love it. Well, accepting that I just enjoy that, today was great. There's not really much more to gush about. It was amazing (:
You don't have to understand I suppose. But. Umm. No, I can't say anything else. I'm here. You just have to decide if you want me or not. "a whirlwind came into my life and it tried to rescue me will you come, will you go will you tell me seriously twistin', burnin', my thoughts turnin' back to you again sweet thing take me to the end You better dig and take a look inside yourself so the story goes or so I've heard it said that you left your land to trade for a place so far away, so out of date that only you could understand and at the ceiling of my feeling backed up against the wall sweet thing you know I'd fall in line You better dig and take a look inside yourself she wants to be free and I want to know that she wants to be free and I want to know" -Dispatch 'I don't know, my chorus teacher wants me to go to Berkly.' "And S. Olivia, I could very well see you going there and working beautifully, you have quite the talent." 'Well thanks. I wish my parents would consider that.' 'Well, anyways, it's during our lunchmod because we had had a conference before at that time' "Ahh yes. If I remember correctly we were speaking under the topic of ferocity" 'My parents think I'm going to crash and burn if I do that.' "Uhm, are you looking at me right now?" 'I know. That's what I've been saying.' "Don't let go of this. You'll regret it if you do." "I don't know, I just feel like I was in another place when you did that." I don't know. I just don't. I'm fine with not knowing though. I'll just keep going toward both of my dreams until one keeps me up at night longer.
Please get help. Please get REAL help. God may be with you, but God gave you some commandments to live by. How about honor your mother and father? Treat your body like a temple? Obey the laws of the land? There's a lot that I could do to help you. But I know you won't accept it. Babe. This could kill you. I don't care if you believe me. I don't care if you take anything I say to heart. I don't care. Don't worry, you won't pull me down. You can't. I've been down. I know how to prevent it. I want you to read the TWLOHA story. Are you trying to be it? Or are you honestly trying to get out. Honestly. Honestly. Honestly. Honestly. Honestly. I can't talk about this anymore. Okay okay, goals for the week: 1)-Do all of my homework. 2)-Eat at lunch at least much (as much as I absolutely love the band room). 3's a nice number...I should make one more: 3)-Email you? Hmm. I don't know. I want too, but I don't know if I should You said I could. I should take the opportunity. He's the only one that could help me with that. I need his advice (: My parents even wanted me to talk to him about it. Ahh. I love my parents for that. "Mother, I prayed for passion and look what the heck I got. Why do I have a passion for something so unachievable?" 'Well, maybe that's what your called to do.' -Breaking point. I can run with this now. "You're a lot like me in so many ways..." I can't even finish writing this. I need to finish homework. I'll leave thoughtful crying for 10 o'clock. ( Backup #3: 3)-Figure out what's going on in that pretty little head of yours)
'Oh, the hard-drive died on it about a month ago' "What type is it?" '5th Generation Video' "Oh really? I think I have a hard-drive for that in my drawer." '...Tell my why you have a random hard-drive in your drawer.' "...That's a pretty good question...but I do have one!" Oh my gosh I love this kid. He's most definitely one of my heroes (: mm, my friends are great. They make my life. Obviously...if I didn't have friends I wouldn't actually have much of a life. Yeah. That's all for my blog today (:
I'm not sure if it's that I don't like it, or it doesn't like me though. I don't fit the stereotype. Then again, what stereotype do I fit into exactly? mm, yeah, I have no idea. Good thing I gave up on those awhile ago. She can't take a hint? How about you can't. Sometimes I just don't want to talk to you, and it's horrible, I know. But you're rude to me half of the time. Which kind of irritates me (: I'm going to have to find something to do today... There's no way my lab report is getting done before 8 o'clock Sunday night. Oh well (: boredom is not all that bad.
So did I just mess something? Oh well, what I don't know can't hurt me. (For the most part) So, I'm supposed to be blogging about gym... So yeah, GYM. ...That's pretty much it. Sam is pretty great though XD Aside from the stress that geometry brought me today, my day was great (: I love is when Tyler plays bass for me :D. That just totally makes my day. I don't like getting pulled around in a desk in science though... That's kind of irritating. But again, it's better than geometry. I do believe ANYTHING is better than geometry... Ahh, I'm getting chicken tenders tonight (: That kind of reminds me of the time everyone thought I was a vegetarian... There's no way I could pull that off willingly. Do I really come across as that? Maybe. Oh well, I'm not (: I love how you actually look at me when I talk. It makes me more willing to listen to you. Or even look at you for that matter. Because you probably have the most gorgeous eyes I've ever seen. But I can only see them when we talk. Or when you decide to stare. Either way, Your eyes are nice and comforting. They're one of those things I could get lost in. Heck, I probably do. I like it.
Found that in my french packet this afternoon. I wanted to cry I was so happy. Oh wait, I did cry. After such a dejecting day, it was so stupid nice. I love my friends. I really think that it's the little things that keep me going. I really know it's the little things that keep me going. Like lunch. Or my best friend who seems to know me better than I do sometimes. Or that girl playing piano for me. Or that boy who's random notes make me happy. Or that girl who's rediscovering God Or that boy who's ever so serious when he wants to be Or that girl who has so much passion for everything she does Or the lighting out my window when it snows Or the quite of the attic Or guitar Or piano Or when my friends play bass for me Or when my friends play drums for me Or when my friends harmonize with me Or when my friends just sing with me Or... Well, you get it. I just don't realize how much love I feel sometimes. I definitely need to take more time to appreciate that.
This more than made my day though. I'm not sure you can fully understand why it even makes me happy. To just sit there and sort of jam like that I guess. Everytime I've done that I just leave. Where do I go? Good question. I just forget and fly away [bahaha, wow, that's so cheesy] But seriously, I'm not all there. Again, I don't know where I go...but I like it (: Why can't I go there in, I don't know, math or something. That'd be amazing. Ahh, it smells to good in the kitchen. I really should eat more at lunch. My mother thinks I eat out of stress...I'd eat more if I was stress eating. I've had two brownies and a sandwich from miss EMMA :D I enjoy eating the food she hates. People are so cute sometimes (: And they have cool shoes! I'm going to email you again. I don't understand how I can connect with you on so many levels =/ People hate you. I think you're the greatest. Please (try to) understand (if you think I've changed). (-Love and Mercy-Daphne Loves Derby)
Hmm. I didn't have to do that voulenteer work. I feel horrible for not wanting to, but I'm so happy we didn't do it. Umm, I have great friends (: (Even though one enjoys spamming me =P) [I'll deal with you tomorrow child] I had no homework today (: It was so nice. wow. okay. I'm done, mad tired.
Hello, New Hampshire? Uhm way to be running on a $148,000,000 budget and decide to 1)-Make is $156,465,000 and 2)-Claim these redections help when they really just increase the budget by 4million. and 3)-Take away half the fxcking music department. What do you expect us to do now? third from the bottom of the cost list, it looks like you're cutting the cost of pencils. Do not think we're that stupid. "Music Department kids, smarter than you since...well ever" -Eric (Ahh, i love homeroom) But seriously. That pisses me off. Our lovely teachers have benefits and don't get effected by the economy. What the heck, why can't we cut a fraction of their pay since it accounts for like, oh idk half the budget? skdjahsdfklgjdfh, i need to stop. Electronics policy is pretty queer too. Can I have ideas on what to do during study during mod B without my ipod? thanks, that would be cool ERG. Positive post later. P.S.-Dear God I asked for my passion back...why did you give me this?
It just doesn't seem right" -Daphne Loves Derby I was going to blog about something specific today... But it's been a long time since science class. hmm...I'm sure it'll come to me eventually (: Well anyways. I've got some really great friends. Like, throwing away caring about academics for the day really helped me to see them. Oh they're just so cute! :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSICA W. !! :D! I'm making a video just for you, even if it finishes up-loading tomorrow (: Okay, doing that then nap. laterr!
I took a couple hour nap today unintentionally while reading. Fail? Yes! I want to cry I'm so tired. My day has been horrid aside from one thing BRAD DOGGETT'S EP IS OUT (: So that's cool... But the rest is pretty depressing emo-esce 1)-Umm, it snowed a lot and I was at school 2)-I was starving 3)-I'm not totally sure what my hair did... 4)-I strongly dislike you. Why #4? More of the same. You can't seriously just push my friends away like that...I don't find it amusing at all. Again, at the moment, I strongly dislike you Why are you talking to me? Why are you talking to me? and Why are you talking to me? Oh wait, have I already asked that several times?...I'm going to go with yes. Explain yourself. I can't wait to see you in 10 years. Oh gee, I've got 'Let's Make Out' Stuck in my head. That's not a good one to quote. EVER. But I do enjoy does it offend you, yeah?
Sugar-Fighting With Wire I love nerd movies (: I need to find someone else to watch them with though... My fave quotes from expelled: "Whatever it was 'excuse me? i was hoping for something more scientific!' " The most basic form of life requires 250 proteins to function. 'Your text book's picture of a cell is totally wrong.' 'One of the main question in biology is where do you get information from.' 'Natural selection alone would decrease the amount of DNA in a cell' I love how my mother won't take Jesus out of the picture to understand this movie. You need to be open about it. I don't understand what she doesn't understand. hmm. People just don't get it do they. Weird. Now my mom is pretty irritated. Wow, this is great. I don't even understand her mindset on this.
Like an 'oh emm gee, we both like pizza and the color red' cute. You're not that horrible. You don't totally ignore me in public. Which is weird, lots of people ignore me in public :D. That's too bad I can't trust you still. Well, I'll give it sometime. See what happens. Sami's boyfriend's over... Ugh. I'll be back.
This sucks. Like, are you kidding me? Have you heard us in the past six months?! I have ideas. Will they get through? Nope. Does anyone listen to me? Nope. Does anyone correct me? Nope. I'm just there. And then I ruin things most of the time because I'm not doing something right and they turn me up. Really. If you want me off, all you have to do is ask.
I'm so happy you're all happy. This leads me to ask why I'm not happy myself. I'm actually really happy at the moment...but it's because of you guys. If my friends are happy, I normally go along with that Mr. brown style happy vibe. But, now that I think about it I have nothing really that I'm particularly happy about. Is that a bad thing? Well, I'm happy aren't I? Yes. Yes I am. I need to stop over thinking things... Today was already chaotic enough. I need sleep. Like, sleep in sleep. Only till 11 though. I want to dream. Honestly that's pretty much always my 11:11 wish. I get so many answers with them. Please? That'd be so great.
So give me one drink and a tune, and 20 minutes of you and Oh I just want to feel good tonight" -Colorful Language "They say you measure a man, by the way he stands Could you kick those heels off baby and still walk tall?" -Happy Birthday Did you really push me to that level today? Push me to do that. Push me to yell? And yet you don't care. Nope, you just walked away with that cute little seductive smile of yours. And I'm not totally sure what I was thinking at that moment. I wish I knew. I wish you'd make up your mind too. What exactly do you have in mind? You say I need to spend more time worrying about me. I used to worry about me more than others, and that didn't end well. Please don't worry about me. Please don't try to tell me what I can do with that. Because I know I can't. It's not that I'm doubtful, it's that it's true. And I don't need that. Because that gets in the way of everything else. I'm sorry I can't be more specific =/. Oh you guys make me so happy (: shoot, leaving, people are here =S
Yay! I was so right (: Go me!! So being me, I confronted the issue without actually confronting the issue. I think it really happened. I'm really not too happy with that. At all. And if that half of it was true, how about the first half? Was that true then? And if it was...may I ask why me? I'm not like that. I never actually was, I hope to never be. What did I do to deserve that horror? Maybe it's not an entire horror. But then the question is again, why me?
Why do people lie? I know the answer I guess, and it's probably just human nature. But then, the better question is why don't i? Or better yet, do I? I don't think I do. You've got little 8th grader right? She's got her fake friends and lies to them. And by lying to them...she's lying about other people. I just don't think that's right. I mean, I guess I wouldn't care about it so much if she wasn't doing it to my friends. Yeah. That's really irritating. Then there's Mr. Freshman. Mr. Freshman's been my friend for a few solid months now. So why is he telling people we've done stuff? I'll be speaking with him tomorrow about that. Best part? I'm pretty sure he won't care. A month ago maybe he would, but now, ehh, idk. Ugh. That just...what the heck is wrong with you ?! I gave you a chance; You blew it. Would I take you back? Under a few conditions, maybe. I'm confronting tomorrow. There's no way I can live with that. So to end this protion of today's blog: People who lie are annoying. On another note: I felt horrible about you today. You never did do what you said you would. Now I'm just more confused. I'll probably stay that way; I'm not sure if you'll follow through. I wish you would though =/. signing off...I'll be on later
With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey, hey She acts like summer and walks like rain Reminds me that there's time to change, hey, hey Since the return from her stay on the moon She listens like spring and she talks like june, hey, hey Tell me did you sail across the sun Did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded And that heaven is overrated Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star One without a permanent scar And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there Now that shes back from that soul vacation Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey She checks out Mozart while she does tae-bo Reminds me that there's time to grow, hey, hey Now that shes back in the atmosphere Im afraid that she might think of me as plain ol jane Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day And head back to the milky way And tell me, did venus blow your mind Was it everything you wanted to find And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you're wrong Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone Conversation The best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day And head back toward the milky way Tell me, did you sail across the sun Did you make it too the milky way to see the lights all faded And that heaven is overrated Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star One without a permanant scar And did you miss me while you were looking or yourself?' -Train. I'm confused, but I'm happy. I'm happy with being confused. I found peace again.
you could just untie your end and let it go but my God, you don't You don't. Yeah, I think I love you for it." -Our World is Grey-As Cities Burn So I got another letter today for another WPI program. I'm half tempted to send in a entry form. I'm half tempted to just let it sit. Why am I wanting to go? Well: 1)-Out of the house for a week on college campus, i loved that 2)-Science...yeah, that's a good reason. 3)-engineering no less. Crap, that's such a guilty pleasure XD Well those seem like good reasons, why would I not: 1)-All girls...I hate girls 2)-All SMART girls...Those are worse 3)-A week on a campus with them being forced to do karaoke and bowl (I'd prefer to do karaoke and bowl with my friends) And then there's the 'only 20 people will be accepted' and '$500' thing. Why why why why? On a lighter science note, I'm going to take apart my old iPod (: It's going to be so great. I've got diagrams of how everything works and EVERYTHING...wow, I'm such a nerd. Sigh, I can't wait honestly. You know, I understand that my friends hate you and stuff, But you truly do make my day sometimes. It's always something...I can't hate you. Well, I can't hate anyone...but yeah. (:
hmm. Four day week. Spoke with some annoying people this afternoon. Spoke with some lovely people this evening. Talked to someone great today in general (: overall? pretty great day.
HORRAY OR EASY KEY CHANGES! That totally makes my day... "Dad we need a capo." "Music store closes in 20 minutes LET'S GO" "...umm okay?" haha, I do love my family though they make me insane! Syncopation is really fun by the by... Like seriously! It takes forever, but the Beatles' "got to get you into my life" is just such a great song because of it (: And The Beatles remind me of Panic at the Disco now... I find it amazing how much they've changed in five years...I like them better now though. Third album should be lovely. So we're probably in for a snowday tomorrow... But I actually don't want one. I've been bored. My fingers are totallyyyy destroyed from excessive piano and guitar. I'm not kidding when I say I do that way too much! It's just so peaceful though. I can't get over the peace I get when I do it. Yeah...that's probably why I do it. I should probably get back into some sort of routine though. Self-discipline...that's on the list of stuff to work on! SNL is really funny... I'm going to continue watching it! |
