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The hole's back. And of course, I don't want to admit that I know why it's back. Just because it hurts too much, and goes against everything I actually want. Like what my brain wants. I enjoy the picture I can set up in my brain, grow up, become a doctor or something in a science field, sure. But my heart is screaming no. And when my heart screams no, I get this hole, trying to lurch me into something else. And it hurts. It hurts a lot. And I hate it. Who wouldn't though? It's not exactly the greatest place to be. And I want to get out. But the way I got out before required screwing a lot of things up. I don't want to screw up a lot of things again. Not that I want to go back to the way things were, because I'm much happier now. It's just that I'm afraid that I'll get myself into a lot of trouble with this hole. I did last time to a point. And I hated it (see a pattern here?). I'd drop the topic, but it's just such an odd way to end a great week. Not to say that today was horrible of course. I mean, Geometry made me want to pull out a gun and shoot the teacher for being such a bitch, but other than that it was nice. Lunch was the usual happy making lunch. The morning was entertaining as always. My french note got me through the last mod. And in study all I could think about was how lucky I am. And English was fun for once. And gym was...well, gym. Which is entertaining whether you want it to be or not. Yeah. This week really does top most weeks for sure. Could it have been better? Of course, but it's the best in awhile. I would kill for another week like this Let's not say kill, because there ARE people I want dead. But we're not going to talk about that now are we :). |
