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Meow.
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What a day. Morning was very nice. Left me on a cloud. Mid-morning was pretty bad. Afternoon was okay. Unexpected? Mmhm. Quite. After school was okay as well. Unexpected? Again, yes. Quite unexpected. First off: No. Everyone needs to stop thinking that that's what I want. With anyone. But today's experience was just plain wrong. No. Don't ruin a good thing. Please please please don't ruin a good thing. And then home: Huh. Just huh. "I don't know, me and dad were talking about your audition and we've come to 3 possibilities. The first, and what we think is the most likely one, is that maybe your pursuing music shouldn't necessary be in the church. I mean, honestly, Have you seen your luck in the past 8 or 9 years?" Well what am I supposed to do? "People want to escape pain, and if you could do that for 3 minutes...that's like therapy." I'm not sure who to converse with about this. I wish I knew someone who understood. I still feel like I'm missing something. That sinking hole in chest feeling. I don't like it. "Don't be scared I need you to keep dreaming." |
