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I'm thinking I'll do World History and English, and save math... Four page english paper though? Maybe I'll do that and read and finish everything else later.. Jeez...I need a weekend. But heyy, I get to sleep in on Saturday :) And Sunday will be satisfying :) Monday will be lame...but Tuesday I can sleep in. And everything would be due Wednesday...the day of the field trip. I'm so awful at managing this time thing... I can't even keep track of time. "Don't ask. What makes you so sure that this isn't me...olivia gunther. Not kirsty whalen even though I love her with the red hot intensity of a thousand white hot suns" "Well Olivia wouldn't call me bradley...haha" -Two favorite people? I'd say so :D
It's causing my to like math. There's something seriously wrong with that. "It could have gone longer, and I wouldn't have minded :)" We're pathetic. In many many ways. "Do you want your hand back?" "Absolutely not." Ahh...it's so so so pathetic. But I love it so so so much.
Subtly comforting...pleasing...calming... All those good, amazing things. It might have been the ease of this one that I liked. Yours found mine more simply. Simplicity. Perhaps that's what I liked best. I honestly can't decide anymore.
So many awful aspects of it. Dad's going to be gone most of next week...then mom will be. I'm so dreading next week :/. This weekend might not be so bad... Jazz All-States are going to take allll day though :P. So much for my Saturday... and then there's church and manchester trick or treating...neither of which I feel up for. I miss sleep :(. So much. Without you I don't think I'd manage. You make me so stupid happy. Thank you :) Darling, you worry me still.
When Mr. Sandford surveyed us about teachers not following the grading system, I raised my hand or her. Ridiculous. Simply ridiculous. So let's see now, what do I get to do tonight? List shall we?: -Run numbers again :S -Write a song for biology -Read for world history -Practice All-State -Practice Concert piece -Study for math -Study for french. ... So what made me think I could make plans tonight? Haha, oh I swear my head isn't on half the time... Oh well..not sure if friday will be really good or really bad yet.. I know Saturday will be pretty awful.. And Sunday will have it's moment...singular? Yes M'am. I just want sleep. A realtively long, happy day and sleep. Is it really so much to ask? "Absolutely amazing :)" "The boys are too refined." -The Hush Sound
Sigh...oh well. Could have been worse. Still pretty depressed about it. I have to make up for this somehow. How exactly? Oh jeez, I haven't a clue. Somehow. "It may come cannonballing down from the sky, Gleam in it's eye, Bright as a rose...who knows?" Bright side? There's gotta be one somewhere. I got ahead on homework? Yeah, that's cool. Now I won't have to stress tomorrow. Jazz All-States? I feel good about it. Things are up...all that's missing is more sleep :/. I had one of those thoughts yesterday...it made me want to list things...possibilities. What I'd like to happen with current life situations, and what will happen. It was like when I filled in where I'd like to major in college on the PSATs. I just stared at it for a bit, wavering. Undecided? No, I know what I don't want to do. It's a matter of wants and necessities at this point in time. It was a depressing thought...that I don't think I'll be happy with my career. Which is awful pessimistic of me, but it's true. What makes me happy won't get me anywhere. So then, one must do something to get by, putting happiness on hold. It figures that I'm thinking about this while I'm the happiest I've been in a long time. It's just like Dylan said to me this morning:"If it's not one thing, it's another" -He doesn't talk much, but when he does I love listening. Listening...I really do like listening. I like listening to people talk about their days, or politics, or...well, just about anything. It may sound insane, but I'd rather listen then talk. I'd almost rather stay silent than keep up casual conversation. Psychiatrist? Maybe. Semi science and listening. Sigh. I don't know. Just let me sleep in for one day and I'll be okay.
"Maybe we should just break down then. Or get lost...maybe getting lost would be more believable." "I'd do that in a heartbeat." "Oops. Missed the exit."
Oh what dread indeed. There might be one particular good part...but that's it. PSAT's? Ehh. Two services of Jr. Kids? Very ehh. Practice? Super ehh. Lots of homework?..more ehhs. I don't know..I just don't want to deal with it. I would like to play some piano though...that would be cool. I really do want to get good at that...i'm getting bored. I need something different...I just don't know what. "I didn't mind that our hands were frozen for some reason :)"
"Excuse me?" "Haha, yeah. Four and a half there, four and a half back. It felt like nothing until I woke up the next morning." "I have to agree with that" -Lots of smiles. Lots of ridiculously pathetic absorbed smiles :) Yeah...wow... World History will be the death of me. I'm prepared to be up for awhile, but I've done a couple of outlines... Nothing huge. I strongly dislike that class. It's not even that I'm not doing well in the class..I'm just fine. I'm bored. I'm finding it difficult to care or focus. I'm starting to enjoy math...yeah. That's pretty bad. Sigh. Oh well. Later.
Best day ever? Beyond comprehension happy? I'd say quite easily so :)
oliviagunther@rocketmail.com Now...Just for Aiza, I'll make today's blog a bit less..happy? That sounds awful...oh well... So right now, I'll do a 'depressing one' And tonight maybe a less depressing one. So today? Major headache :/. And that was pretty much it... I do remember not paying any attention in science...God I hate that class. Pathetic. Simply pathetic. Yeah... And what was that? Kind of unexpected.. Sketches :p
Thanks guys for screwing me with babysitting. I don't have stuff to do or anything. It's okay :) Oh, Sundays. You're so amazing :) Ridiculously amazing. So why do I talk to you? Why did you stay is my biggest question... Till the doors closed...again? Haha. Next weekend will be fun :) Oh, Sundays. Please stop? Please? I've asked you to stop several times, and you haven't. It's just gotten worse. You're not our 'mentor' You're not involved. Please stop being involved. "I don't know...he kept denying it. I'm so pissed off at him." -I honestly can't imagine. Why do you continue to deal with that darling? "So I'm in love...sue me."
Wasted day studying? Yeah. But I only have to copy everything on my sheet tomorrow. Which is nice I guess. Not like I'll do anything tomorrow anyways...I don't really remember the last time I did anything on the weekend that wasn't school related. Someday... Someday pathetically far into the future :) That was a weird phone call. "I don't remember claiming anyone..." "Well, the way I see it, it might as well be happening, you know?" -Okay, sure. I guess I could see where someone could get that. But of all people, you? I don't know. The questions you ask about it just make me think you know something I don't. Sigh. Again. I don't know. Why are people suddenly concerned about me getting hurt? Do I seem vulnerable or something? I didn't think I was...but I can hear what I'm thinking too. Silly people. :)
Am I going to talk about it? Nahh. That would just be unnecessary my friends. Why? Fear mostly. I don't particularly want to be questioned. Anyways. Mm, yeah. Good couple of days I've had so far. Probably more like great. I have a B+ in English all of a sudden? Cool :) We didn't suck on Wednesday? Cool :) Half hour walk? Very cool. Spontaneous hugs? Also very cool. Free Mod in bio? Cool :) I'm an accompanist? Quite cool :) Silly side comment: "..and she asked me why I was so happy, and I just said,'I don't know...it's Wednesday.' " |
