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Like, virtually exactly the same. And virtually the same end result. I don't want this end result though. Because that means I'm stuck in a cycle. Which is very Naturalist of me.
I missed the sound that it made on my roof, when I walked outside, and the light it shed. I like it in the summer when day has that eerie green appearance. So, I guess the rain was like a time capsule. Transporting me to a place where my insides are cauterized and bruised. And I feel numb. My mine can wander to places it hasn't dared enter in months. I really want to heal that spot. It shouldn't be bothering me this much. I need to go away. (2 1/2 more years x3) It's kind of lame when all your week long vacations start and end the same way. I'm trying to compose myself, but you're making it difficult. I'm praying. "Aggressively mediocre in every single way, yet you're the only reason that they came."
At least, I'm supposed to. I really do love Ok Go. They're lyrics just make me so happy :). "Needing is one thing, and getting, getting's another." And Motion City Soundtrack :). "You're the echoes of my everything, You're the emptiness the whole world sings at night. You're the laziness of afternoon, You're the reason why I burst and why I bloom. You're the leaky sink of sentiment, You're the failed attempts I never could forget. You're the metaphors I can't create to comprehend this curse that I call love" Mm, yes. I like those songs :).
I don't want anything to be wrong, regardless of my irritation. But, I have better, more exciting stuff coming. Which is nice...because honestly, that's how I want it to be. Less stress. You follow me, I don't want to follow you. It just seems less stressful in that light. I like it. "And I. I. I don't miss last November." -Motion City Soundtrack
And read stupid documents. I think my headache is from lack of sleep. Because I felt fantastic waking up. I had to crash eventually I suppose. We've got a concert tomorrow. I don't really want to do it, I'm really irritated with the whole thing. Maybe I'll get it one day, like I did a couple years ago. Only his explanations made sense. And the past explanation doesn't fit now. And it's okay. I think I'm going to pick up some electric guitar today. Simple sounding song, nice distortion. It'd be nice to do something...different. I'm bored, after all.
I need another silly topic. I'll think of one tonight. Mm, reacquainted with Mute Math<3 Thanks darling. Two more short little days, one of them being an assembly. I love assemblies. Well, in reality I hate chorus, thus hate assemblies. But it's just so much fun to be required to bore half of the school to tears :)
Sami's running away again. Awesome. Can't wait for vacation now. I had a really weird dream last night. Is this what my life has come to? "I may come cannon-balling down from the sky Gleam in it's eye Bright as a rose...who knows?" -Something's Coming; West Side Storyx3
I know my procrastination is awful. And I know my sleeping patterns are awful. And I know a four day weekend is pushing it. But my mommy really doesn't want to pick me up in the snow. Do you think you could kick the storm a little bit? That would be nice. Love you, Olivia
To hell with perfume To hell with chocolates and picnics and Sinatra tunes Cause while the rest of the girls are drowning in roses and songs he composes. And while the rest of the guys are all trying, oh, trying so hard. Hey girl, Let's crash a party." -I love OKGo and they're awesomely fitting lyrics for the day (: I'm not exactly a fan of valentine's day myself. It's more of Hallmark's day to guilt people into buying stuff. Love is lovely, but guilt's of the devil. Just a little thought (: So, I'm going to see the Princess and The Frog with the sisters this afternoon. The music is supposed to be good, which is cool. I enjoy music. Wow, I really liked that smile. I'm not sure if I'd ever seen him so happy, not that I really have ever talked to him. It made me happy. I really like happy people (: Lots of things for homework. Lots of things for cleaning. Awesome day. "My letter's don't return, situations change my point of view." -All For Nothing-Fighting With Wirex3
yet you're the only reason that they came." -Dear&TheHeadlights. I don't know, I just feel insanely lucky. Which is silly, but true. I think I'm insanely lucky.
"You can't be in my room because it's pretty and gorgeous." -Why is the three year old such a bitch? I don't understand how someone so small can innocent can be so incredibly rude. I don't like children very much. "You know what...I think yourrr critical." -Yes, I guess I am. :) The past couple of days have been...irritating. This isn't when I'm supposed to be irritated. I don't like being irritated. I don't know what I did exactly... Or, I don't know what I have been doing. But that's okay I suppose. "Speak dumb, like every other one. Don't want to let you down, I'd rather let you fall apart, and so you back off, a bit less obvious. So you forgot I called? Won't take it personal personal honey. I know you've just busy or, you need to be alone Well you can call me if you're bored I'll sing a song low over the telephone, in lower decibels, so you can hear it and hear it and hear it and hear it." Sweet Talk-Dear&The Headlights. -Love this band so muchx3
when there's something brewing in the sky. Come on, there's too much distance, Separating you and I. But there's no real reason, take what you can get, She's never asking why. Now i know, that's treason, I'm shaking and I'm moving and it's all because of you" -Fort Knox; Goldfish. The Best Part About It Honey-Daphne Loves Derbyx3 "I'm sorry you had to take me so seriously." That was a regret. I don't enjoy being stupid. "All we have left to do now is sleep."
I'm trying to think of a response paper topic, but I'm at a loss. I thought maybe I'd write about something in The Scottish Play...but I'm now too interested honestly. I thought maybe I'd write about Naturalism, but I can't really think of a relevant way to use it. I kind of wish I had something to reflect on that was relevant. I'd like to write a response paper for once, but of course not. I can rarely think of anything. Maybe something will come to me later. I got a new tagboard. Maybe I'll remember the password and username this time. Tomorrow is Wednesday, which means it's that halfway point through the week. Which is almost unfortunate. I've had a pretty good week thus far, not too many assignments, but enough to keep me relatively busy. I'm still bored though. I'll be trying out at some point this week, which will be nice. I'm not sure I really care if I get in or not, I just want an honest response. "I became insane, with long intervals of of horrible sanity." -Edgar Allan Poe
But this one isn't working for me. I'll find something eventually.
Noon stabbed. And the evening started over" This weekend was so..ridiculous. Busy? Yes. Tiresome? Yes. Short lived? Yes. Best time I've had in awhile? Yes. Slightly terrifying? Yes. "Remember that time..." -Story of my life. Dear God, Thank you for healing, and clarity, and comfort, and sanity. Thank you for peace, and love, and people. Thank you. -Susan Gunther "So once you achieve all your wildest dreams, you'll barely be able to feed yourself, let alone children."
"Just in music." "Maybe next semester..." -Because it doesn't really matter all that much, does it? We had our own little conversation in Biology today. We're sick of class rank freak outs. It's annoying. Don't ask me what my rank is if you're looking for a self-esteem boost. I dislike that game a lot. I finished writing that song finally. I gave up on chord progression one and found something better. And the lyrics are kind of...fitting for me I suppose. I can't say anyone would really like it that much...but I like playing it. I get lost in those funny tension filled chords. I get lost in that funny melody. I guess that's all that matters, right? Maybe. Maybe not. I'd love to be a starving artist.
End of Story.
I totally forgot about it until tonight... So, tonight I'll do that and finish french and maybe even type my silly lab report. World History make up can wait until morning. It has to now. God, this was a hell of a day. Tomorrow has to be better. It just has toooo. I'm sick of these less than desirable days, they're pathetic. "All I can say is that my life is pretty plain you don't like my point of view, you think that I'm insane. It's not sane. It's insane." -Blind Melonx3 |
