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I learned a lot in two weeks, at least more than I thought I could. Examples?: 1)-I can analyze 12 tone music. 2)-I know something about the guitar. 3)-Hey, I can play handbells. 4)-I cannot define music. People will always just try to redefine it. 5)-I sang the 9th of an Ebm9 chord. Yes. 6)-I know that believing in something is a whole lot better than believing in nothing. 7)-I came close to having theme music for my life. 8)-Dancing is certainly more about having fun than dancing. I love dancing and I hate how no one would ever do it with me until SYMS. It's awfully fun. There are good reasons why I did it for eight years. Equally good reasons why I stopped? No, not really. But it doesn't matter. Regardless, I'm very much missing waking up and seeing everyone in the morning. I'm missing piranhas and sarcasm. I'm missing staying up too late with my roommate or on the phone. I'm missing having to be concerned about being followed. I'm missing making hippy headbands. I'm missing public displays of affection, including being presented with fortune cookies at dinner. I'm missing being yelled at every evening at ten. I'm missing a lot. I hope it meant as much to everyone else as it did to me. :D!
Remember when you could call them friends, darling? Because I can't. I guess I never did. And never will. "It's the most beautiful thing ever." Glad I have a chance to use it. Thanks guys. I have had the worst headache in the history of mankind today. asdfghjkl. I hate it. I want to cry. I really just want to crawl up onto that couch in the basement and sleep. It's gotten me behind on my reading. :/. I was doing well too, I'm 325 pages through out of 732. I would have liked to get to 400 today though. Maybe I'll stay up later. Just to get to 350, then maybe I'll catch up tomorrow. After the weekend if I cram a lot, I might get all done. Sigh. Doubt it. But it would be nice. Then I can get that and Pygmalion and the Chem packet done. Then for August it's just 1776, a short history of nearly everything, math, and bio. Good God. I can't wait for college. They don't give you summer work in college. College is looking better now with my nice AP score. I got a 4. :). I'm so excited. Yay.
What a strange thing to do, to go outside and run in it. What a strange boost of energy and happiness after an awful dream. What a strange, fabulous idea. That dream really was pretty bad though. Silly people. Silly past. Silly future. Whatevs.
Oh goodness, how I love finding bands through television themes. Pshh. But this Locksley, not half bad. Kinda reminds me of Ok Go, with that slight tinge of classic rock sprinkled in. Sprinkled in? Okay, maybe not that flowery. Regardless, they're worth my time. And Owl City has captured my attention again. "I'll be out of my mind and you'll be out of ideas pretty soon so let's spend the afternoon on a cold hot air balloon." Sigh. I can't really say I dislike any kind of music, can I? Mm, oh well. Sure beats summer reading. Finished Son's and Lovers today. It had potential to wrap up and be all cute in the end. But no, Paul Morel is an absolute ass. Cool. Perhaps David will be more interesting. SYMS in a week is making me pretty anxious. Because that means two weeks away from home, away from family. Kind of like a real break. And even if it ends up not being so, I've got that solo Arizona trip. The wonders of flying alone. I love it. So many fascinating people on planes. Smile, and it changes them completely. You'd think they'd never had an enjoyable trip before. Gosh I love smiling. Smiling has certainly increased lately. More than okay with it. And I feel as if it will actually stay for once. Oh so quiet moments pondering, smiling, how would they manage to slip away?
Strength in my bones put the words in my head. When they pour out to paper, it's all for you. 'Cause that's what you do." -Say Anything; I Want To Know Your Plans Summer reading is lame, but coming along...slowly. Hoping I can get through Sons and Lovers and move on to Mr. David Copperfield this week... It's not that lofty of a goal, it's just lame. SYMS is in a couple weeks :). Very excited to leave the house for awhile. But even more excited to go to Arizona by myself. I love long lonely plane rides. <3 You meet so many people. Going away just sounds so nice right now, especially in this awful heat. It's draining and I can't seem to do anything worth a damn. Perfect for summer reading. No wonder I torture myself so, the weather is perfect for such activity. Fall, come back. I miss your cool walks and gorgeous trees and pathetically carefree Sunday afternoons. Everything just seems so much better in the fall. Favorite.
I did five math problems for Chemistry. I think I'll start that U.S. History book. Hey, maybe I'll be able to enjoy the second half of my summer if I crank. I think I'll sleep tonight.
Depressing even. Why am I so exhausted? I don't want to be so exhausted. I just feel like sleeping. Dreaming. About anything and everything. But no. I guess I can't even manage that on break. I wish I could. So why can't I? I stay up too late only to wake up too early. Not cool. Certainly not feeling this one too kindly. "Could it be sunstroke?" Maybe. Maybe not. Peace. Sleep. Comfort. Come back to stay won't you? |
