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1)-Getting lost on the way to Dover. (THIS IS JUST LIKE THE MOVIES) 2)-Getting lost in downtown Dover. 3)-Buying things at the Family Dollar in Dover. 4)-Searching for my brother on Locust street using skateboarders as a point of reference. 5)-Watching my brother play a show (supportive sister, naturally.) 6)-Being totally sure that we know how we're getting home. 7)-Getting on to a random highway not two minutes after we leave. 8)-Being lost...again. 9)-Asking a random guy at the shell station for directions. 10)-PUDDING HILL ROAD and SKETCHY GRAVEYARD. 11)-Getting on 101-E 12)-Getting on 93-N 13)-Getting home alive, with cookies, and post show adrenaline. Yes. I'd say my Friday night was a success. How was yours?
I'm not sure why exactly. I just wasn't. It kinda felt like a wasted weekend. But it's okay. It was boring. Lots of night driving for no apparent reason. Silly, really. I hate driving. But I hated being at home this weekend for some reason. That's depressing, isn't it? Probably. But who knows. I'm finding it difficult to care right now. Tomorrow will be a better day. At least I hope it will.
Victory is mine. I'll celebrate...eventually. I feel so much better. :) And? Jazz All States are overr. And since there really is no chance of me getting in... There's nothing more to worry about. :) I don't know. I feel better about it now. I'm so happy. I shouldn't be. Because tomorrow has "awful" written all over it. But it'll turn around. It has to. I love you. But you already knew that, right?
And she should know her place." I feel so awful right now. I shouldn't, but I do. :/. I beat myself up for silly things. It happens. I'm going to go driving tonight. Because I need gas. And I need to get out on this Friday in particular for some reason. I need to get ready to be super intimidated tomorrow. I always regret signing up for Jazz All-States,
So I'm excited. It'll be easy. Notes in Bio, a free mod, pictures, math test, jazz band, APUSH test, discussion, practice with Juliet and Tim. How could it be that bad? I'm pretty sure I've got my math test under control, and I feel a little better about history. Even though I hate history. Minor part of the day, of course. But yeah. Jazz All-States this weekend. I'm kind of excited. Which is cool. I doubt I'll get it, but I feel I'll do A LOT better than last year. Besides, I've been preparing for six months rather than...three weeks. It's gotta be better, right? Tomorrow is going to be wonderful. It has to be. Music and human beings existing. What could really make it any better?
Though I'm not sure of your intentions. I don't even know. It's just weird seeing people with different faces, because I don't like working like that. I don't know what to think. But. Economics is getting owned TODAY. Or tonight, rather. I'm so sick of it. A single, half done assignment. And a final. Seriously? I'm pathetic. I won't mention it. Daddy, I love you ever so much. Please hurry back after your trip. "Signing up for that second semester, Because you won't marry without a degree." -Grace<---my one request right now.
This weekend has been so wonderful. Beyond lovely. Thanks, love.
I can't possibly deserve any of it. At all. Ever. None. And yet, there it is. And I'm completely content and at ease with it. For the most part. But it's a really big "most part." Weekends are so wonderful, though not always so interesting. The past few have been very good though. Very much so. I love fall. Have I mentioned that? Probably. Oh well.
Yup. Awesome. :). "I've seen my future and I don't exist." Today was a lot of...things. Lots of irritants. Lots of good things. I'm sure if they evened completely, but it wasn't bad. Not great, but not bad. After tomorrow, I do believe exhaustion will officially take over me. I'm pretty sure by Thursday night I've just hit a wall of insanity. Why does it seem that happiness can be so tempermental? Actually, why are feelings so tempermental? Not like, bi-polar...but it doesn't usually take a whole lot to change such things. Happy, to annoyed, to pissed off, to sad, to happy again. Not me. But other people. Strange little cycles people go through. Because after everything done during the day, a lot of people are unhappy. Which seems horribly depressing. Glad I'm not one of them. Babysitting bothers me. I don't really like kids, and I can't do anything productive. Awesome.
Then it was all done. Funny how stuff like that happens. Even if Aiza wants to puke after reading this, I'm writing it anyways. This is for you darling. <3 "Have I ruined your day? Cause that was my goal." -Loveee you :). There are a few trees that are absolutely breathtaking in Manchester right now. One of them happens to be in front of my house. Yesterday morning, I woke up to a bright orange pouring in my window with the light. It was so pretty. I love fall. Fall fall fall. Fall's my favorite. Everything about it has always been wonderful. Especially this one, for some reason. I don't have much homework, I feel like I'm smiling constantly. Sure, my immune system doesn't seem to want to work, But that won't really be a problem until winter. I'm so happy. Timing is so perfect. And yet so strange. Strange? More like unexpected I guess. A beautiful piece of unexpected work. I really hope this one lasts a little longer. I really hope this one lasts a lot longer. One can only hope. I love smiling. Kisses?
I'm kind of a square. But I hate the writing portion. At least there's a sort of puzzle that goes along with math... Whatevs. This week is going to be a strange one, I think. I'm going to have two large tests, one I'll probably do well on, another okayy. I'm hoping for my CD to come. And then that I'll actually have my free mod on Friday. And I want to work on Jazz All-States stuff with someone. And I don't want to babysit. ...but that one's probably not going to happen. Then there are PSATs. Yum. That's how I want to spend the one day I can sleep in. Yeah. Waking up at a normal time. How beautiful. I'm looking forward to the morning tomorrow, though. It seems to be a nice habit, wanting to show up to school in the morning. I feel like I have a slightly better attitude about it now. Kidding. I have a better attitude about everything now. I really like being made this happy all the time. (: "This is the fuck you tune, You told me that I should lose some weight?"
But I've been dying to know what getting clean is all about." -I'm so excited for You, Me, and Everyone We Know's new album. Obsessed? Probably. But I have nothing better to do with most weekends. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. Honestly. Clarity would be awful nice. Whatevs. I feel really boring and typical today. Isn't that pathetic? Maybe it's a Sunday thing. "I'm hanging out on Monday, My Sunday dreams to dry." I like nice people.
I love days that make me just want to drink coffee in bed and listen to the rain. Because chilly days make hugs and kisses, blankets and coffee, and hands and socks so much more satisfying. I didn't feel quite as sick after my nap today. I felt like a cat after. A cat? Haven't used that in a while. I'm really happy. Everything's going nicely. Quite wonderful, actually. School's under control and going smoothly for the first time. I feel mellow. It must be fall. And all this rain. And all these wonderful afternoons and evenings. Can I put life on pause in fall? Just because fall is always the best. Every year it is.
The End.
Which is wonderful, because I haven't had one this good in... Well, a long time. If ever. Thank you thank you thank you. And thank you. <3 I'm all done with required homework, And am smiling all over. Damn good stuff.
"Do you think we could turn it around? Do you think we could silence a crowd?" -Fighting With Wire. (: |
