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There's so much emotion bottled up that shouldn't be. But I don't want to let go of it. There's nowhere to put it. It's not fair. I'm being selfish right now, so I'm sorry, but it's just not fair to me. Guess who gave a shit about being happy herself this year? Yes, me. Which was difficult. Because sweetheart, you laid on the guilt ever so thick. Both of you. "Nope. Don't do it. You're hurting other people." Yeah, well no one has to know. No one ever has to know. No one ever really deserves to know. And I think that this year, if it has done anything, has done the following: 1)-Music is still fabulous and fantastic and make beautiful people with it. and 2)-People like to either have control over others or the ability to throw you under a microscope. Well. I got out from under the microscope. It took a good month and a half, but I did it. Now, let's just forget all of that so that I can go exploring again. And so I'm starting the year with a little bit of fire in the belly. Like, not for school. But for things that are fun. Because I was getting better at having fun this year. Let's have fun next year. I don't care what it is. And guess what? I refuse to stop spinning. Again, my main resolutions this year are to get better at music and to find happiness. I don't really care where I find it, so long as I do. We can criticize me later. |
