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Guess this is my last night to completely slack off. <3 Oh dubstep. Good things.
I. Am. So. Excited. For. This. Like...I'll probably pre-order it. It's that bad. Yum. <3 Kids suck. I'm running away.
Language language language. This is right, this is wrong, but you shouldn't tell people. -Sometimes, I just think you're scared of the world. Eventually someone's got to crawl out of the cave. I'll do it. Whatever. I'm okay with being spit on. It happens all the time, right? Samson. <3
Mm, :) "You can't talk to them...they're hipsters." -Takes one to know one, right? Meow. Weird day. Oh hey, I have candles. :)
Damn caffeine withdrawals. Very good things occurring this vacation thoughh. I'm happy with it, I think.
"Why do you know so much about these things...I'm worried?" -I wasn't kiddingggg. Meow. So much homework. Hopefully this week will get a little better as I get into it. It's not bad, it's just a little boring, I guess. "I wish I cared about the things you care about...but I don't." <3
"Your heart felt good, it was dripping pitch and made of wood." This album is just today for some reason...this song in particular. Powerful meaning too. I like it a lot. Weird thing to cover though. Easter things. Pretty quiet I'd day. It's alright. Tonight is music with dad, because we're both pretty awful. But hey, it's fun. And it never seems to happen anymore. I haven't thought about the black sheep nature of our family before. But it explains our personalities quite accurately. We're all kind of isolated. We're all good at being alone, most of the time. We're all contained and quiet about life events. We're like a little boat out in the middle of nowhere. And the best part is? When I leave, I'll have my own runaway life. My parents were silly. Nope, they weren't getting married. At least not while I'm in the Navy. At least not while I'm so goddamn depressed. And I'd never meet anyone in a bar. And I'd never meet anyone in a bar. And I'd never elope. And I'd never elope. Silly. It's wicked cute though. Makes me really happy thinking about it. I still don't understand why it makes me cry. Weird stuff right there. Oh man, thank you.
First day of vacation turned out swimmingly. :) Got a lot of busy work done. Probably need to do more tomorrow. But not as much. Which is nice. Woke up in the rain, slightly sleepy. But content. Quite content. And tomorrow is Easter? I ate so much candy today... Should be problematic later...but I'll manage right now. Wow, I love people. :)
I...I'm not really sure what to say about it. And I probably will try to not say anymore about it, so long as no one asks. Lately I've been bored. And irritated at the lack of caring people seem to put into life. I'd really appreciate something interesting or new or different to happen over vacation. But I know that it won't. Because it never does. Usually things just get worse. I hope things don't get worse. Please please please don't get worse. Please please please get better. Get happier. Get love. Get something worth a damn. I've got mixed up memories and I've got favorite places.
Mm, I just like her for some reason. Watchin' telly, drinkin' wine.<3 Wicked unexpected way to start a morning. I feel like my Biology teacher likes me more, now that she knows I have a little bit of talent... Amusing stuff right there, I must say. And another sleepy, yet easily managed day. Let's see how this show goes this evening.
And for that I say,"you are quite welcome, throat. Thanks for treating me well and sounding alright the past few days." And then my throat say,"Aww shucks..." Then I'm informed that talking to my body parts is a sure sign of a sleep deficiency. Oh well. :) Tomorrow is school and practice and practice and talent show. I'm looking forward to it, I think. I'm up on all my work and such. Which is good. I'm pleased with it. The whole lack of sleep thing is annoying though. Mm, yes. quite. I've thought a lot about the future the last few days. And I can honestly say I'm not that worried. Sure, there are certain things that might line up that would make me more comfortable. But really...I'm not too concerned. If worse comes to worse, I'm alone all the time anyway. I'll be alright. And there are hipsters walking alone on the streets of New York everyday. It's just that much easier to blend in with the crowd. I'll stand out later. Not now though.
Not at all. I see nothing. Should I see something? Maybe not. But it should look different. More defined. And names shouldn't be forgotten. How do you forget that!? This week is...I'm not sure. Fun...but quite possibly not worth it. Biology teacher hates me again. Cool. I feel like my punishment paper should have a lot of effort put into it. Not really to induce guilt... ...no. I want it to induce guilt. So lots of citations and analysis and stuff. Sure. I don't know...she just seemed wicked irrational about the whole thing. Had that conversation with dad that usually ends in teary eyes and naps. This one was no different. "Go pursue it. Be happy." -Gah. I'm a mess with the whole college thing. School is feeling especially tiresome lately. I need to fix that. 我愛你！:) This band thing is fantastic. I really enjoy it a lot. This morning's assemblies went pretty well. I'm proud of us. My common place book conference is tomorrow. It's funny, because I'm supposed to pick three or four entires to show. Chances are this is going to be one of them.
That kicked ass. Assembly tomorrow. And short classes. Should be an easy day, overall. At least I hope so. That would be nice. Nice things are nice. Like baked goods tomorrow afternoon. It's just like window shopping. "I can't believe I'm saying this. Sometimes, you have to do what your parents want you to do, while secretly doing what you want to do." -Just mom making me cry. Oh how the tables have turned.
For some reason it always gets tense when I learn new songs. But the left one is fine? Regardless, Folding Chair has been learned. Success. It's being added. It's happening. Ice Cream would be cool. Real food would be more cooler. Yes. More cooler. And you know, sleep would also be awesome.
I was barely home again today. And tomorrow will be more of the same. I laid down for a little while today and just thought about stuff. I really appreciate the people who are content just to sit with me under blankets. Maybe when things slow down. Oh, who am I kidding. :) I suppose there isn't really a need to wait for things to slow down. Because honestly, I love it. I love it a lot.
I'm exhausted. Awesome day. <3
Going away today. I'm not really sure where...I just need to be out of the house by 12:30. So, naturally, I'll go out to lunch. And, naturally, the windows will be down. And, naturally, I'll find a place to walk forever. And, naturally, I'll have none of my homework done. And, naturally, not many people will be aware of my expedition. Yeah. Shh. Highly successful day. Got coffee. Took three walks. Made someone feel guilty. Played music. Ate food. Even wrote a freakin' awesome paper on Frankenstein. Busy and awesome week ahead. Fantastic. I'm pumped.
Because that would just suck so freakin' bad. And it's so so so unnecessary and ridiculous and pointless for them to have to deal with that. Mehh. Silly things. Next: -School shxt. -School shxt. -Practicing. -Adventuring. I like number four.
Ridiculous. And I've finished my have done songs and started another with major 6ths <3 Hmm. Weird stuff. "I'm worried about you getting behind on your school work with how busy you are." -meh. "Didn't he just tell you a week ago you needed to get a job?" -Basically. Mm. I don't know how to feel about the next few months. I believe it will be the best and the worst simultaneously. Yeah. Something like that. Moi deux?
The answer to that odd question is probably quite simple: We're intimidating. Fan-freaking-tastic. It happens, right? Whatevs. They'll get over it someday. Even if someday is far away. Learned Regina Spektor's "Hero" today. Oh, and finished a song...no big deal or anything. It only sounds awesome. And I'm being a jerk.
Screw this, I'm going to bed. Also, more happy things happening today?! So happy. So so so happy. I. Love. People. Watching. <3.
I'm excited. I'm really excited. A lot. Good music things always make me excited though I've done a lot of dumb things today. Not dumb like bad...just dumb. Pointless, but nevertheless very happy making. Why did I take a 20 minute walk after school? I don't know. It just happened. I didn't remember a lot of things today either. But I think that's okay. Because there seems to be less stress. Which is cool. I like less stress a lot. Tonight is online classes, cleaning, and Cinderella. Mm. Nice. Late-ish? Probably not all that bad. I'll make it work out alright. Yeah. Good things. Good things indeed.
Long night. But lotssssssss of good things coming up. Man, do I love concert season. <3 And just playing music in general. Things are alright. Things are alright. Now...where exactly is the Zimmerman Telegram book I got a month ago? Found it. Under clothing items. Mm. Caught up on school things! Yay! Woo! Horray! Silly things make me happy. Thank you for doing silly things.
Oh well. I feel better about it I guess. Chemistry test early, then two Biology quizzes and a math test. Which is cool, I guess. If you're into that. Which I'm actually not. But you know what...that's alright. Tuesday Maskers. Wednesday practice and Jazz band things. Thursday beautiful music and magic. Friday music and magic. Saturday bowling and homework. Sunday city living, potentially. This week will go by fast. And so will the next one. Fourth quarter always likes to run away for the first half and drag on ever so slowly for the last half. It's weird. Creative writing things. I'm submitting Cinderella, because it's a reflection on human nature in men and women. That...and I don't have much else. I guess I'll put my John Donne poems in as well. Maybe a couple other ones I had attempted to do too. But I'm not sure. I do need something by Thursday, though. I'm okay with it, though. Because I'm running away this weekend. And I feel like the spontaneous of it will make all the work worth it to some degree. I love this so muchh.
A trip to New York. I want to go to Boston. I'm not sick but I'm not well. And I'm so hot cause I'm in hell. I speed in stilettos. What are you going to do about it?
Also, that was once. So please don't worry about such things. I liked times square a lot. It was cute. Lethargic. |
