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Definitely will be heading back in the near future. Coffee and classy Paneralike places. Ahh. Good things. Dance class tomorrow?! Wooo! Phone at Michi's house? This was bound to happen eventually. <3 Too many thoughts...not enough attention span to right them down. #hashtag
I don't know quite why I like this song so much. But I do. "This is not deja vu, I've never met somebody like you." A tad frustrated.
Happy 24 hours of I don't get it. Happy 24 hours of maybe next year.
I got Chem and Lit and Calc and Jazz and Physics and a free extra music class. Not bad. Unfortunately, I have both of my science labs on the same days. So that means, that on Mondays and Wednesdays I don't have any mods off. Wow. Isn't that great? That also means that on Tuesdays and Thursdays and Fridays I have 2-3 mods off. I can't complain too much. Home! ...I'm sorry.
And it's going to be so strange. Looking at colleges and preparing auditions and writing essays... And then, trying to maintain decent grades for that thing called High School. And forcing extra time into the day to enjoy fall, because fall always finds a way to treat me really well. I don't know what it'll be like this year, but I know it's going to be really pretty and walk worthy. So. Many. Walks. <33
Awesome.
Alright. Sounds good to me. I get awfully bored sitting around hotel rooms... Blehh. I don't know.
Damn it. I don't like that feeling. The third category, in general, referred to as crying or weeping, is increased lacrimation due to strong "Emotional stress", "Anger", "Suffering", "Mourning", or "Pain". It also occurs during the brains "Fight-or-flight response". This practice is not restricted to negative emotions; many people cry when extremely happy. In humans, emotional tears can be accompanied by reddening of the face and sobbing — cough-like, convulsive breathing, sometimes involving spasms of the whole upper body. Tears brought about by emotions have a different chemical make-up than those for lubrication; emotional tears contain more of the protein-based hormones "Prolactin", "Adrenocorticotropic hormone", and "Leucine""Enkephalin" (a natural painkiller) than basal or reflex tears. The Limbic system is involved in production of basic emotional drives, such as anger, fear, etc. The limbic system, to be specific, the hypothalamus, also has a degree of control over the autonomic system. The parasympathetic branch of the autonomic system controls the lacrimal glands via the neurotransmitter Acetylcholine through both the Nicotinic and Muscarinic receptors. When these receptors are activated, the lacrimal gland is stimulated to produce tears. I don't know what half of that means, even if I did well in Bio. Regardless, I don't like crying. Especially in front of people. :/. Bleh. Fall will come and everything will be better.
So stressed. I. Hate. Pictures. I'm not photogenic. One. More. Day. Then I can't leave for a little bit... My hairdresser goes on vacation every few weeks... I don't see how that's possible. Sure. Our family leaves every once in awhile, but for a majority of those excursions, it's in the name of school and...well...Connecticut. Not exactly vacation. But it never it. It never has to be, I guess...but I want to go exploring. You know, you can get a room at 18. Isn't that nice? North Conway. I want to walk around and smile...that's about it.
Weeee! So excited for tomorrow. Movies with mother tonight. :) This is going to be such an awesome week. I need dance shoes.
But I enjoy Potential coffee shop jobs. But who wouldn't? Lolz. People are so strange. These past couple days worth of social interactions have just been very amusing. Man, I need to leave...Let's go see North Conway soon, please?
Because that will make life both less and more complicated. End result? No change, other than a lack of wifi and cell service. And let's be real. I need that. Babysitting tomorrow. My favorite. And tea, hopefully. Yeah. Also. Not a fan of Dartmouth. "I went to Wesleyan. Now I work at Dartmouth. Let me tell you about our grad programs." Oh man...it was hilarious though. :)
Good day, good day. Good day indeed.
Why is she so awesome? I think that I have a problem and listen to her far too much. Oh wow, I'm going away in less than a week. And I'm getting senior pictures taken soon. And school's starting soon. And I'm almost done with my summer work. And I've finished my grad letters. And voice lessons happened. And college visits happened. And... I don't know. I think I'm satisfied, but I'll definitely have separation issues next year. That concept is so strange. And I don't get it yet. But I think I'll understand it more next year. I'll have to, right? Yeah. Why? Wait...don't answer that. I know why.
I guess I'm just another one now. It's comforting to get positive feedback from someone with skill that's never met you before. A bit of a confidence boost, I guess. Not huge...but it'll probably be helpful. Good God, this rain is beautiful. I'm in love. It's so dumb, but it's my favorite. It's steady, saturates everything, and...it's simple. It's just awesome.
Come home: 12:30 Nap until: 3:00 Zombie until: tomorrow :/ Damn. I have a voice lesson tomorrow. I think saying that is weird. It's going to rain tomorrow. :) I'm okay with that, for sure. Letter writing.
Good morning. Show up at 7. Sing. Then so babysit children. Then go sing. Then go babysit again. And then it's one, and I lack the desire necessary to get into my car and proceed to sleep the rest of the day away. Awesome. :/ But that's alright. 3.5/4 books read 1/1 Chem packet completed .90/1 Math packet completed And then? No more summer homework forever! :D! I found a nice music school. And I found a nice science school. And I found a nice middle school. The middle one just happens to be really hard to get into. And the others just happen to not offer much of the opposite subject. What a Dill Pickle I'm in. British Modernism, ya know? Going to North Conway in less than two weeks and it just makes me really super excited for fall. Fall is the best. It never disappoints. :)
So the University of Hartford is ehh, and the Hartt School is awesome. Well, Boston University is awesome, and their music school is...lacking in awesome. I can't audition in three languages...I dropped french, remember? Just so many strange things about that program...very strange. Hoorah for buying tea! Yeah!
And after tomorrow, I'll be even more exhausted. But it'll be good dragging mom around Boston, I think. We'll make it interesting. I need new tap shoes? What is this? But they're heels...so they must be fun, right? I think I'll like it. I like walking around and no accomplishing anything. It's refreshing.
I'd move over to Tumblr...but this is just such a habit now. Apparently it's a habit to read, from time to time, also.
Oh, Manchester. <3 Luckily, not everyone's like that. Just particularly creepy looking people. Shweet. Yeah, I don't know. It's just catchy. And Cute. And things? Yeah. Good day? Good day. Sitting rocks are pretty cool, ya know.
I'm so unsure of everything that I'm doing. Yeah. Let's graph a sin wave on a numeric scale...I'm so confused. :S Math is so overrated. "Is there a math requirement for music majors?" "I feel like if you can count to four, you'll get by..." 12 graphs later I just feel dumb. What's summer reading? I got halfway through and can't bring myself to look at it yet... Yum. Bright sides, though. There are always bright sides.
The end.
All these things start to look the same. The whole college search, in reality, just made me more confused. Gahh. "Uhh...I think the music department is open? Not sure if anyone's there." -Thanks you Clarke, Fairfield, and Assumption. I could have assumed that. Blehh. Oh cool...there are lab spaces...yay lab work... Sleep is a good thing...maybe I'll care more about it after sleep. "You guys are still pretty tight though, right?" -More or less? I think? Probs? Sure? I think so, anyway. Oh, Connecticut...
-Regina Spektor When Regina says it, you've got to believe her to a point, ya know? Headaches?! No. Not an Old Gray reference. Just a real live headache. Busy next few days. Clarke visit. Connecticut. The Hartt School. Fairfeild. Birthdays. BBQs. Shows. All After an exhausting Sunday and Monday of child care. But spaced by a lovely afternoon and evening eating and covering songs, naturally. Man, what is sleep? I don't know. But I know that I liked it...I'll try to catch some later. I like looking at colleges because it's one step closer to leaving. I don't like looking at colleges because I still have an entire year left. Self-esteem should not be a problem at this point. Tea and sleep and friends. Stop worrying, dear. You worry too much about everything. You're too scared of too many dumb things. Irrational fears are only for your sister, because she has an excuse. You don't, really. So don't. Fix it. How? Oh, I don't know. I seem to have the same problem, from time to time. On a lighter note: Mom finally gave my the quilt that she made me. It's been finished for a month or too. I think she liked it too much to part with it. |