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It was so weird. Sure, I woke up with the same back pain I've had since I've been sick, but I slept! 12 hours no less. One day left of vacation, and now I sleep. I can't even sleep in tomorrow =S. Sigh, I'll make it a point to take naps tomorrow. I love naps. I'm gonna miss them next week. Next week, ugh. Next week is going to be interesting. I know I get the pleasure of writing a three page paper for English...but I'm worried about what other lovely surprises might come. Progress reports? I really hope not. Those just ruin my days. possible Cs? Well, I'm hoping my couple quizes in geometry are okay, but that's probably all...right? Science should be fine. English should be great after the Odysesy stuff. Civics is over (: I'll be fine. Just breathe. I'm way too stressed. But what am I stressing about? I can't really think of anything to stress over. This vacation was supposed to be restful, and it was to a point i guess, aside from the being sick thing...if i was like that at school, eek, it would have been bad. Why am I stressed? Why why why why why? My headaches are stressful...that could be part of it. People are stressful...that may be closer to the answer. Sami lately...there's no question that that's part of it. School...12 page paper eventually on something I've never even heard of? Majorrrr stress maker. But I have piano. And I have guitar. I'm a lot better at guitar than I thought I was. yay intermediate stuff! Pain meds still haven't kicked in yet... All I want to do right now is sleep but I can't. I WANT TO SLEEP Please? Just a regular sleeping pattern at least would be nice. Can I wake up "refreshed" for once? I'm still convinced that's not achievable, but there's always a chance I suppose. I've been going back to my summer pattern of praying. Haha, I sound so stupid when I do, but I love it. Laying on my bed staring at the ceiling just talking to him out loud. And I know he cares. I've read books that say that he does, even went to a camp that threw that at me. I knew it long before, it just takes a little while for me to come back around. "There you stood holding me, waiting for me to notice you." No worries, I'm coming. I don't think you understand how much those stupid things make my day. I came across the first one in my bag and seriously laughed out loud. Maybe it's because it's like a more personal text message on paper. Or maybe because it's so random that it makes me laugh. ...I'm betting on the second one. I miss you. And I'm half the problem of course, but that doesn't mean I'm not allowed to miss you, right? I'm fixing that. I really want to. There's no way that you can be replaced and I would never dream of that ever happening. Well, that's a lie, I've had dreams of that...it was horrid. I'd never dream of it intentionally...yeah that's better. "Love and Mercy. Blood and Bravery." mm, Daphne Loves Derby is loved very much by Olivia... I need an 11:11 wish, seeing as I'm going to be awake for it. The topic of interest for my wish? I'm not sure. I'm almost positive though that I'll think of one at exactly 11:11. That's what always happens. I love how I've been taking it so seriously, haha. It's more like a text message of a prayer I guess. The "Hey, can you give me something to make it through the day?" prayer. Yeah, that's it. Wow...that was long enough. Making my wish, than going to bed. |
